F.E.A.R. 2 is fuckin creepy. I'm just gunna say it. I was actually scared a few times.
Anyhow. I'm laying in bed typing this, and my sister just flicked on the bathroom lights. I'll admit, I jumped... That game is the scariest shit I've ever played. That's just what I wanted. It's been so long since I've actually felt scared of anything like that. Playing alone, in the dark, with Alma Wade trying to eat my face really was the best way to go. I know it's been out for a while, but I figured I'd try it and see how it ranked against it's hype. Maybe others have played it and found it boring. Idk. What I DO know, is that it actually gave me nightmares. I couldn't remember them when I woke up, I just had that shimmering recollection of real fear, and the feeling that I'd just had a nightmare.
Not many people know me this well, but I have trouble dreaming(or more probably just trouble remembering my dreams). This bugs me. My gf described some of her dreams to me, and mine seem completely different. Not just different in content, but like an entirely different level of dreaming. I've had less and less, and I don't really recall when I noticed it. It makes me sad . Knowing that I'd had a nightmare when I woke up was actually nice. It's like I now have proof that I'm not just dead when I go to sleep. I really can't explain it, and I doubt you'd understand the feeling unless you've gone through this. I used to have dreams that I'd wake up and smile about. That hasn't happened to me more than twice in the last 2, maybe even 3 years. I want to dream again. I want to have a recollection of those dreams.
On a completely separate, and non-depressing note, school is pretty great right now. I'm glad I decided to type this, because I just realized I have to finish the homework. We're in J-term. We get a month straight of in-depth study on one of a list of subjects. I chose Fairy tales this year. Last year was Disney. I've already learned a lot, and it's fun. We're not just doing the pretty little Disney-esque fairy tales. We're doing Grimm Bro's. We're doing all those horrific ones with death, and sexual themes and all that stuff that was ok to talk about way back when.
Gunna go finish that hmwrk now. I think I'll finish the blog about my concussion tomorrow. It turns out it's a lot worse than I first thought, and the dr. won't let me play soccer for a while. Headaches are plenty. Sadness :'(
G'night
